with school work, with work, helping out as an research assistant to a PhD student, with NTU-IIC, with my friend who came from Holland, with everything else.
my mum says I am neglecting the family. it's like my weekends are burnt and during weekdays, I am in hall.
feel so damn bad about that :( I promised to make up for that.
too many commitments, too little time.
It's been sometime blogging and so let me roughly rant it out. everyday I got a surprise. yeah...
I realise people around me are getting married, whether for the right or wrong reason. be it shotgun, young love or watever... it's just shocking, people are telling me.
someone: "I am settling down" me: "where? still in singapore rite?" someone: "nono, i mean MARRIED" me: "when?" someone: "this year or so" me: "....OOO... so soon?" someone: "not shotgun ar!" me: "haha u noe what i am thinking, do u?"
getting cynical abt the whole marriage thing at an early age 23. still trying to accept it.
ALso know some really shocking news from others abt others that I got. I am a woman. natural basic behaviour to feel what's going around me. thanks for the updates too! ;)
I still prefer the freedom and becoz I am so BEEZY BEEZY. how can I even spare the attention and time for the fruitful relationship? ya, forgive my ignorance.
the love, the bed of roses...... maybe one day I will make the effort again. I am juz following the game now. u be it, i be it. simple as that.
The break-up movie - truthful, unshallow, closer to the heart than it seems. brings my identity in some instances. guilt even. and finding scenes so familiar. still, it's a movie to be pondered upon.
somehow, I realised I've change. I've gained so much more confidence than 3yrs back. I've become so evilish. to people who doesn't matter to me. I've learned to speak up. in the past, im juz-ok person. I felt apologetic but now? NO! whoever is wrong, I have to speak up and tell the person before the head gets bigger for the other person I juz feel somethings are necessary for being unapologetic. I've grown to criticise too but im still nice :P
Next happy birthday greetings to:
1. Kaiyun aka cleo 3 aug 1. Shirly dearest 10 aug 2. rara the crazy clown 15 aug 3. muliani and teeping 25 aug
may you august babies bloom grow and blossom........
and the song that brought my attention cranberries - Linger
If you, if you could return Dont let it burn, dont let it fade Im sure Im not being rude But its just your attitude Its tearing me apart Its ruining everything And I swore, I swore I would be true And honey so did you So why were you holding her hand Is that the way we stand Were you lying all the time Was it just a game to you
But Im in so deep You know Im such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger Do you have to, do you have to Do you have to let it linger
Oh, I thought the world of you I thought nothing could go wrong But I was wrong I was wrong If you, if you could get by Trying not to lie Things wouldnt be so confused And I wouldnt feel so used But you always really knew I just wanna be with you
And Im in so deep You know Im such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger Do you have to. do you have to Do you have to let it linger
And Im in so deep You know Im such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger Do you have to, do you have to Do you have to let it linger
You know Im such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger Do you have to, do you have to Do you have to let it linger
