so many things have change
Friday, January 03, 2014
things have change but people?
I think I have changed. I am glad it's for the better.. *grin*
2013 have been great.
- I got married to a great guy. he's not rich but he got the heart and treat me like a little queen :P
Marriage is for life and I hope we can make this last because no one knows what the future holds.
constantly creating the sparks and communication is key.
I never thought I would meet the one.
I had all these "standards" and "hygiene" like the guy cannot have BO, bad breath, snoring etc.
Keith have fulfilled them all. hope he maintains this way.
we will work hard together for our future. YEA!
- I got pregnant. yeaps, it's true. I am going to be a mother *gasps*
I am truly blessed to be given this gift from God. only he can create life.
it wasn't planned for but it just happen and I am glad :)
it's been 7 and a half months this pregnancy journey and it's been great.
I feel her little movements and big kicks in my belly... so miraculous and I am enjoying every moment.
I think I should record my pregnancy journey else I forget like my mum.
I asked her and she's like "so many years ago already, I forget"
My pregnancy started as a SHOCK.
I did not realised I was pregnant until i missed my menses for a week.
I felt normal except my stomach was not bloated. usually, before menses, my stomach will bloat out (not as if i have no tummy.)
so ok, I tested the pregnancy kit and it's POSITIVE.
i didn't believe it so i went to the doc. POSITIVE AGAIN. they took test kit to do it. -.-"
ok took folic acid then i had a bali trip upcoming.
at that time, I was lost and confused.
Should we get married? what if he don't want? can i take on this burden to be a single mum?
what is abortion like? how my parents feel? do we have the money to buy house and marry?
do i love this guy to spend the rest of my life with ? does he love me? will i regret?
what will happen if this kid grow up in a single parent family?
so many questions with no answers.
we decided to have a H2H talk about this.
he asked me 3 questions:
- Do I want to marry him?
- Am I ready to be a mum?
- How much do I want this?
he's a logical and practical person so he need these answers before he can make a decision.
well, to put the story short. the journey was great. we just ROM-ed first in TCC@keppel bay and decided we will put the banquet and customary on hold first till I give birth.
we bought our EC house all within a month in August which is ready by May 2016
we went to Bali and I drank alcohol (the last touch) and played in waterbom park in Kuta, Bali. took exciting water rides.. really fun! actually I was so "gung ho" as by right first trim, should be very careful else miscarry.
I had so much faith in God that this baby is meant to be and NOTHING not even the devil can take this baby away from us :)
"You shall serve the Lord your God, and he[a] will bless your bread and your water, and I will take sickness away from among you. 26 None shall miscarry or be barren in your land; I will fulfill the number of your days." - Exodus 23:25 to 26
my GOD is here protecting me and my baby... forever and for the rest of our days together :)
First trimester was smooth. I had good appetite and no morning sickness.. just nausea feeling all the time.
the only sad thing is I cannot drink or eat my fave sashimi :(
I ate one time and drank one time because my friend say as long as it's fresh, it's ok to take a few! but gosh, i felt so guilty after that.
I drank so much milk. 2 cartons every week - Marigold low fat, hi cal with DHA omega 3 is LOVE! yums
I tried taking supplements but the tablets are too big for me to swallow and I vomited them out therefore, I decided to do without them even when I used a cutter.
It is a joy to go gynae and see the little heartbeat growing inside me.
the joys of being pregnant is unexplainable.
I see her growing week by week makes it all worth it.
2nd trim was rather smooth sailing too.
Though I had nasty yeast infection that has form to a culture. it was afraid it will be strep B which is more complicated and will affect the baby.
I was also really tired. sleepy and having spinning headaches from time to time.
boobs got bigger, tummy getting heavier and rounder.
I was garnering for a boy but it turn out to be a girl! my hubby is happy :)
I wish for a healthy baby most importantly.
my OSCAR test was 1/555 probability and 555 represents grace! Praise the Lord!
this girl is rather active.
kicking, jabbing, turning, tossing, somersaulting I am sure.
I already love her before I met her like the savage garden song, "I knew I loved you before I met you"
Other things I felt during pregnancy is I was dropping hair and also feeling constipated. I tried eating fruits but still constipated until I get piles :(
got this lump at my anus but it's harmless so just putting moisturizer on it.
I also got flashes of ezcema on my face and scalp.
as you can see, if you read till here. I am trying to be as detailed as possible so next time can use it as a reference :)
good thing is i didn't put on much weight. the start of my pregnancy, I was 46.5kg and now I am 53.8kg.
my 2nd trim.. I didn't have much cravings or appetite. really weird unlike the rest.
so my friends told me, if they didn't see my belly, they wouldn't guessed I am pregnant.
my tummy is also not as big as my friend's wife who had her navel button sticking out already.
Moving onto 3rd trim now!
the first day of 3rd trim - horror thing happened! in the early morning, I feel liquid trickling down my legs.
I woke up at 9am in horror. I was bleeding and I rush to the toilet and wanted to pee but pee out chunks of blood. I was shivering. I hope my baby is ok. I prayed to GOD.
the night before, I felt my baby kicking vigorously. I wonder what happen so I went to c my gynae straight away and was still bleeding. when i took out my undergarment with my pad, the blood flow out like water tap on the gynae table below.
I knew it was my placenta - the life source for my baby.
I had placenta previa (major) and like the gynae say, it's like a seed planted - u will never know where the "Seed" will be planted.
I can rely on my GOD for this healing.
In his stripes, I am healed!
so I was admitted to hospital in thomson medical centre for 2 nights in a 2 bedder room.
My hubby stayed by my side until he gotta go off for running errands as his sister was getting married the following day.
i was still bleeding but not as much as before. I tried to pass motion but exert force so I bled more.
I just continue to relax... and was told to bed rest and no unnecessary movements.
after discharging from hospital, I still went to my sis-in-law wedding on 29 Dec but unable to go meet my friends for NYE countdown :( I was upset because every year, I was there until this year.
my hubby did not allow me to go because it's too big a risk.
nevertheless, it's been a week now - I am on hospitalisation leave and cheers to 2014!
15 march - my EDD and I can't wait to see my little one.
it's going to be a great journey in 2014 - parenthood, motherhood and babyhood.
I am going to go thru C-sect and may GOD give me the strength and courage with a smooth delivery as he has delivered me from my transgressions.
all glory to almighty GOD, my father, my abba.. my jehovah jireh, my shalom peace... and everything that had me whole and bring me to where I am today.
Labels: 2014, happy me, love, marriage, pregnant, relationships
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