Super PMS

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Worse day of my life!

rush like a mad dog for L'Oreal Brandstorm and with barely 3 hrs of sleep.

Did not go for my last day at work and damn! I feel super bad about it.

Did not go for supper gathering at chomp chomp with my colleagues - fun bunch of peeps.

Have to cancel my taipei trip because I am SICK AGAIN! well done! my mother's also sick and we all lost the mood to go because of the earthquake - have to fork out $194 to postpone the trip to MAY instead.

Have to help my mum settle the Bank FD account she wish to open and stir up some commotion.

Super diarrohea!

feeling moody

one word: ALL HAPPEN TODAY AND I FEEL ROTTEN ALL OVER!

but anyhow, I am glad to spend new year in Singapore and is prison break that good? I am going to catch 1st episode at least now. hehe

so HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!

Labels: rantings

A rainbow to end my day

1:03 AM

feels like my..

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Birthday!

nahz! A candid shot though it really looks like it's my DAY but it's our X'mas celebration at kenny's house.

haha it's long since we last gather and we also had a fun night popping away:

Our pot luck with our log cake:
lots of food!

Our gifts exchange! I've gotten a "I wanna be a princess" teeshirt from shirly and I gave a chocolate fondue set to elaine.

Thanks to dear kenny and lainez for organising it and I like kenny's cosy condo! nice! facing the swimming pool and not forgetting the BIGGEST LCD computer screen I've seen.

Welcome home shirly from Oklahoma City University!
She bought pressies for us and not forgetting the beautiful sights she shown us from her stay there.
Think she had a great time there! hehe

Cin was away but we make her sense our presence with a phone call away.

We had movie marathons and others had mahjong sessions.

Seems like we are all getting old.
hope not senile yet.

games don't thrill me as much like last time.
let's sit down and chill to a peaceful night away.
fatting now.
gotta stop.
gimme a resolution!

Labels: pictures for memories

A rainbow to end my day

11:21 PM

I wanna wish you a merry x'mas

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The Diamond X'mas Tree from Soo Kee Jewellery.

awww when I was young, my mother told me "A diamond is a girl's best friend" and yea, I used to wait for her at the barbies section while she go on a diamond expedition.

to me, "A barbie is then a girl's best friend"

when I hit 21, diamond SUDDENLY had a connection with me!
Ok not so SUDDEN but with progression from CRYSTALS 1st then introducing the BIG boss: diamond - the hardest object in the world.

beautiful! yeah....

MY NEW ACQUIRED BEST FRIEND. I wanna be close to it as possible. there's this CONNECTION - unexplainable. I can see it glow from a distance. I can feel its presence.

This X'mas tree is like one BIG GLOWING TEMPTATION! HAHA..

more about this tree:
Recorded in the Singapore book of records
1st ever diamond x'mas tree from Soo Kee Jewellery
crafted over 12,966 man hours
weigh over 3215kg
decorated with 456 lights
with 3762 of crystals
encrusted with 21798 diamonds
total of 913 carats

Lastly, Have yourself a merry little x'mas.
spread the love

Labels: happy me

A rainbow to end my day

5:00 PM

The missing Story

Friday, December 22, 2006

4th story:

I can't wait to get married and start a family!
give my parents distractions from their boring lives
give myself a hard time

lastly, to love and be loved.

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I believe in tests like this:

You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

from the courtesy of Aman's someone

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A rainbow to end my day

12:35 AM

I just want a simple life

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

why do we have to complicate matters?

it's either BLACK or WHITE.
Somethings doesn't really matter.

Recently I am on MARRIAGE STRIKE! to find out what I mean, read on! hoho

ok, this is a term I named myself, purely lynette's philosophy

It all started with a series of events and experiences that I must share it and look back as I get older. the surroundings, people around me and the things I read and see seem to be conveying a message and I just find it really amazing.

it's like almost close to nirvana

the 1st part of the story:
My work deals with customers and I must say some of them really plan for their future, setting aside money for a better living.

It was then I started to reflect on myself.
I must too start saving (Ok don't introduce endowment or savings plan now to me, I am a poor student!)

saving for the future. Nneth also had the same sentiments and saving too.
only spend if we have the capabilities.
some things cannot rush for the sake of showing off.
Actually I think I am quite thrifty already except for some indulgences because I am still a lady. haha!

Nowadays, people are pursuing so much in life: status, career, car, credit card and end up choking up with loans and debts. I must yearn to cut down on my spending because for a more comfortable future.

BRANDED goods. How much are they worth? they don't yield interest. 5 years later, they can be considered outdated and depleted so to me, I am NOT into branded goods but rather the quality that speaks for itself and the price doesn't say much.

That's my take. I don't fancy and I don't need unless the design is great and durable but to part with a few HUNDRED bucks, I just can't do it, I can't part with the money.

Yeaps, I am cheapo! fake unauthentic goods keeps me happy too. I don't dress to show off. that's me and I am sure those who know me well enough will know that but if I do change and eat my words is because I became RICH & HAVE TOO MUCH MONEY ON HAND! wow I wish....... HEHEE

a Simple non-materialistic life will do. shop in metro or normal pasa malam too as long as the clothes fit me. 2nd hand too because it keeps me warm and covered.

I rather spend on IT gadgets, car, house and for my future lit' ones and family.

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the 2nd part of the story

I went to my team leader in my current temp job humble house.
He was the same age with my nneth and got married just last year.

When I stepped into his house, a feeling of tranquility came over me.
no, wrong... to be specific: my future vision appear.

the house layout was clean and extreme simple.
simple and easy to interpret.
the moment I walk in, I comprehend it all.

I see couple toys, pictures of them together, wedding bands, presents of promise, pledges of love.

LOVE is in the air.

no signs of royalty or trying too impress.
it was just clear & lucid like their house: white, spaced out, glass

it got onto me. the LOVE. it smells of LOVE everywhere
Suddenly, I was full of envious, full of admiration because 2 people in love living under the same roof with a simple motive, a simple life with a simple house.

I mean I wanted that all along. after tired day at work, come back with a peace of mind with your loved one by your side with a large space to breathe. it was an executive flat for a newly wed, mind you!

contented. no need private estate or condo and paying loans that breathe down our necks. at least this is what I feel for now. HDB is ok but the interior must be swee swee, comfortable, simple and cosy.

I don't mind doing household chores! serious!

I thought about us, about living together and be able to start off a family.

Now, you see what I mean from the start?

sweet fruits of love. overbearing and juicy, enough to feed you for the rest of your lives. worth pursuing for the early days.

darling, let's make simplicity explicate.

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the 3rd story

No, this is not the end. the 2nd time I cried so much in life when I watched Monday episode of "Triumph of the skies" when yunzhi died while sacrificing his life for a lit' girl and how yishan and yichen cried their hearts out.

I felt like I was in there, mourning too.

I felt Yishan's sorrow as someone who dearly loved someone and for the LOVE he shower upon her.

then, it ponder upon me, "what if I was her?"

I started thinking how life is fragile and we should all cherish what we have.
losing a loved one. PAIN. REALLY PAIN.

at that spilt moment, I knew I missed nneth.

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The 5th story

I was being nosey and concern looking through friendster pics of my friends.
some updates that I have yet to see.

I realised some of my friends are happily in love, some happily married, some just gotten their bundle of joy! I was very happy too!

babies babies babies.

it's like entering into a new phase. a new beginning. a new look-forward element.
not that I want to be a mother-to-be but the feeling of being a mother suddenly dawned upon me of...

"Can I be a good mother when I am not a good daughter or gf not even to say wife?"

I thought of the virtues. I lacked.

thanks. I have A LOT TO WORK ON.

AM I willing to work on?
what is stopping me?
what will happen to me in the next few years?
Am I giving my best shot?

of coz, my thinking just stops there. I mean there's no answers so don't think too much.

I mean looking at my friends who were like me before fulfiling their role at its best. doing so well, so lovingly, almost like what I wanted to achieve. the picture I wanted to protray.

I think I am encouraged and pacified. motherly feature as a start.

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my 6th Story

My mother was telling me stories about this ex colleague friend of hers.
and when women come together, daughters' businesses come in.

wrong, I mean AUNTIES.

my mother told me about how successful her friends' 2 daughters are. scholars, smart, lawyers, married doctors, have kids, comfortable living.

I was like "SO?"

I mean why must we compare in life?
everyone lead a different life so must I keep feeling SORRY about the state I am in just because of some other successful person I pass by or met?

Being the GREAT daughter, I just kept quiet. I mean if I argue, no ending to my stubborn mother. I don't mean that she was actually pressurizing me but her show-off friend was trying to make things difficult by asking, "how about your daughters?"

thanks! now I have a whole lot explanation to do.

no blood or war, I ended off by telling my mother, "As long as I am happy".

seriously, I don't feel pathetic because there will be someone worse off than me.
but that's not the point.

the point is, " BE CONTENTED! "

my mum being the little kid trying to get some attention, I told her I promise to be at least able to FEED her in times later and be comfortable.

my mother in the most disasterous and cutest way:

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my last story

I was reading Aman's blog and I thought it's good she sort her thinkings out.

Now I was recalling what she told me before, "Isn't that because I love then I am afraid to lose?"

then I thought, true. if one truly love someone, he/she will tend to be overprotective, wanna see him/her and be extremely jealous.

Why I am not feeling strongly about this?

I feel secure with him.
I give him space for his friends and gal friends even.
I am least worried.

simply to say, not that I care less but just because I trust him too much
he gives me the security I want and I don't feel skeptical at all. completely let off. I ask myself if one day I made this ONE MISTAKE to be lenient about this then I will say I have no regrets.

Because I live through this without a fear in my heart. take things as it comes.

needless to say, I give him wings like I never did before with my ex bf, Jack.
In fact, we broke up because of jealousy and betrayal.

so why not bitten twice shy?

It's so hard to explain. It depends on how the guy assures the lady.
he must let her know what he is doing.
he must explain to her what she is worried about.
he must give her space to miss him.
he must accompany her when she need him.

I feel nneth fulfiled to his best eventhough he feels I don't care actually I do.

I do not wish to be trapped in a routinised relationship where 2 parties felt stranded, trapped and helpless when one is without another.

Today, I watched 2 dramas and ultimately reflected EXACTLY what I was seeking for:
Zhang Simei told Zoe Tay, "Love is worth more than 500k but if he wish to leave him, I will let him because there's no insurance in a relationship"

"if a man's heart change, no matter what you do he will still leave you so be open to him. let him have the freedom to do what he wants"

Zoe Tay rebuked to say that "she rather choose the 500k because Love is like a drug,makes you curious. it makes you want it and through time, it loses the passion and becomes stale but yet you know you can't live without it. it becomes an addiction."

eventhough Zhang Simei denies she felt something but ultimately, it's a woman's nature to feel jealous to show he means something to him.

how ironic! welcome to the woman's world.

It's about balancing. the scale of love. placing weights and taking off some.

my point is, "if you love someone, hold the sand in your hands at the right amount of strength because if you hold too loose or too tight, the sand will fall off your hands."

then I watched the Triumph of skies to learn something really enriching, don't plan too much. don't think too much as well. just live for today.

ENJOY THE PROCESS REGARDLESS OF THE OUTCOME

even you only live til tommorrow, at least you know you spend your day with your loved one like it was your last.

why worried if he will leave you?
why worried if he will betray you?
why worried that he will do something to hurt you?

because even if you keep him locked, he will still find a way to do it somehow, sometime and someway.

give him wings to fly and he will fly to you in speed!

Labels: happy me

A rainbow to end my day

8:50 PM

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

I mean snow not rain.

these few days been raining cats and dogs but more like milipedes over the drains and not forgetting the MUD.

gross!

anyway, finally elaine did it.
she uploaded the photos I've been waiting for.
who can be as EFFICIENT as me! upload on the day itself!
I am just too anxious (but good to have me as a photographer)

so much for self-love

sit back and enjoy the pretty sights!

me and DESTROYER aka lainez
(heh, I look good here so MUST put!

)

ya and that starlight on her cheek is to punish elaine! hahah!

and then we went clubbing finally.
wanted to go MILKSHAKE MOS but end up in gotham penthouse.
but it was helleva fun too!
with the company.
some people really go crazy! that's the way: LET UR HAIRS DOWN!

let the music take control.
your body, mind and your soul....

met up with joanne. as promised, we will club again. hopefully the next time at attica. It was well to meet up with julie after 1.5 yrs!
found out some updates (really juicy!) and also some sad news.
as mentioned, I admire that lady.
meanwhile, I hope she will be well
and I will send her my x'mas blessings because she did last year

well, x'mas is here again.
thanksgiving! remember to thank those who stabbed you, leave in a lurch, hurl insults at you and dig nose to feed you because it is THEM who made you stronger, bolder, tougher. SHUI PAI SHUI!

and embrace those who made your day, kissed you without you knowing and touched you in every lit' way (not molest or whatever)

I will give a speech soon in my blog so think about it.

Labels: pictures for memories

A rainbow to end my day

1:07 AM

down

Thursday, December 14, 2006

with flu for the last few days.

I have become sleeping beauty, taking off from work, from everything.

it's quite shoik seriously because I haven't got a good rest after exams.

I have tons of medicine!!!!!!!! shitz! I hate medicine. To me, it's just pills and popping more doesn't help. I think they are like sleeping pills and NOT really useful to make me well. water and rest is more important.
but I will TRY to keep up with the diagnosis because apparently, it suppose to make me well?

Ok enough of the sickness, makes me sick also

while I was resting and recuperating, I caught PRINCESS HOURS (Goong):

woohee! DAMN FUNNY AND NICE!

before someone say I like lots of things.. compared to FULL HOUSE, it has a different touch of story plot, romance and comedies.

truthfully, I really enjoyed it to the CORE!

awwww.. the princessy life and the cute korean boys, witty fun girls and not forgetting the hot hot hot hot passionate love they have for each other. something I saw that was WOOOO!!!!!! caught me off guard and I have to replay it like 5 times before moving on. Those who watched will know what I am talking about, let's keep the suspense...

Yes I am very cheeky gal!

I mean come on... where can u find this in real life where royalties and commoners come together? only in dreams and only in TV where dreams come true in the most quirky way as well.

Not forgetting some really BEAUTIFUL people we must not miss as well!

acted as hyorin. she's totally sweep off ur feet even for me.

the ever famous YUL! even my sister fell weak in the knees.

for me, I prefer Lee Shin and Chaegyung: superbly funniest, cool, unpredictable and laughing non-stop like an IDIOT but yet romantically crazy to capture my heart.

better catch it! because in my life, I only catch GOOD korean drama series and this is one of them.

and darling, before you know it, it's mid of dec! X'MAS IS COMING!

*Ps waiting for someone to upload fotos so I can blog abt them!

nite

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A rainbow to end my day

12:42 AM

Give me back my wings

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Actually it's nice to unplug once in a while. just pull out once in a while, without a care in the world.

I mean LIFE isn't just about success, achievement and being able to earn lots and lots of money. to me, Love, family, self attainment plays an important part in my life.

Life is all about balancing. love, work, family, friends, SELF.
you need time-off, you call it.

don't be mad to jump off to the MRT track after you realised NOTHING can be salvaged.
MONEY isn't everything (but without it, also die)

so manage ur life!

I mean even you are KING, you can't be fully satisfied or even happy rite?
I don't mean I am queen or regard results as unimportant but it's not my priority.
I live my life to the fullest. resting and relaxing. so don't stress me up.
I care and I will. I don't really like to be pretendious.
I am sorry, I don't really like to give in if I feel I have the rights to.
I hate it. I define stress MY WAY.

Working over the vacation and I really learn a lot of things in the banking sector. my work is really quite challenging and interesting. another perspective of learning new stuffs and my route to see if the banking sector is for me? don't wish to pursue something that I have no interest. feels like I am being forced into it.

searching and seeking

check out this view from raffles place building where I worked:

Imagine catching fireworks at my workplace during the night? gosh....

Singapore can be quite romantic actually. admire the views though it's not rome or italy.

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Yes! I am officially a TV Addict! for years, I did not 'follow' series.

finally from 8pm all the way to 11pm and sometimes to 12am catching local drama series to Korean (Yes! I am going to catch Goong!), Hong Kong and reality TV amazing race asia to worldwide.

great.

I love this hongkong drama and currently following closely in channel U (Yes, I know I am SLOW)

Triumph in the skies 衝上雲霄

It's really meaningful learning about FLYING and also....

the COOL pilots in uniforms. I mean SUAVE!

One of my fave actress: Flora Chan aka Yishan in the show.

eye candies to keep me GOING and they act well too! Weeee.. addiction sets in.

and the best of all, the guy who make me MELT (other than nneth)
awwwwwwwwwwww...... I have another 'lover' in my list now:

It make my heart bleed when He can't fly anymore..
"Give me back my wings"

my life is fulfiling. work life make me sleep early. well done!

gd nite!

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A rainbow to end my day

12:09 AM

A lit' treat from me

Super PMS

Saturday, December 30, 2006

feels like my..

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I wanna wish you a merry x'mas

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The missing Story

Friday, December 22, 2006

I just want a simple life

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

down

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Give me back my wings

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Songs of Rainbow

Someday I will find it

The Rainbow connection

The Lovers, Dreamers

& me

The pot of gold at the end

Must go

Someone out here