Monday, July 26, 2004
Tell me I am Stupid!::
If only I can turn back time.... says:
u cant make e mistake again
I want you back in my life says:
i cant help it
Ryan Lye says:
but u got to noe when to love someone who deserve it
I want you back in my life says:
hmmm thats true
I want you back in my life says:
i wish i could
Ryan Lye says:
think abt it saeriously 1st...
Ryan Lye says:
dun let ur heart decide........
My say: I've been deceiving my heart for quite sometime. The brain took control. But now, the brain lost. He even appear in my dreams. Dreams of the past. Dreams of the desire.
Yeaps. I am Stupid. It's the past. Moved on but Stepped Back. Did I choose to? Sometimes Feelings can't be helped. I do not wish to live with regrets without giving my best. Then again, I am back to this same picture: Facing myself, Tormenting inside of something I can't have.
My friend ever commented:
"This will be a neverending story"
Maybe all along I never wanted it to end. Maybe fairytales are meant to happen in our lives. Maybe I think too highly of Love and fate. Maybe its unstoppable and uncontrollable. Maybe I just want to be happy. Maybe I want to be with him beside him supporting him because I do love him.
We are old enough. No more 1999 childish days. No more trying to create romances. No more trying to be noble. No more being silly fools waiting.
Rational vs Irrational - Can I ask is Love ever rational? It's not planned. It surpasses time and overlook obstacles.
It's gonna be difficult - To throw my pride, my ego and integrity.
A woman's gotta do what a woman gotta do.
Subconsciously, I still do. I really do. My dreams are my only vertification. My feelings when I chat with him was proven.
Surely, It might be a failure but I know I did my best. From then on, I shall be strong and decide what route to take.
I think I know what I want. I know my dear friends scare of me being hurt but like what cyric says: "If you don't feel hurt, how would you know it's love?"
So support me and wish me all the best =)
A rainbow to end my day
12:17 AM
