I realise individuals are not innate but shaped by experiences and minset influenced by environment.
I guess when I was 16, I juz ask for someone to love for & to love me. I did not even think about what I really wanted in studies. juz wanted to follow the norm, get a poly diploma, do well then consider for the future. I juz wanna be hip, updated with technology and knowledge. I define that my life was full of LOVE. I am a rather pampered child. I never knew I was wrong. I was arrogant in a silent way. I was proud of my achievements. My family are very Liberal. They give me my share of freedom and choice. No pressure and decisions are independent. I learn to make a choice.
When I got a lit' older during 18, I realise my responsibilities as a group mate, as a team. I realise it's not only me, myself and I. There are accomodations, flexibility, making people understand, to understand them. Human relations became so important. I start to realise what I was studying for. I start to realise U cannot make everyone happy. I realise I love to help people. I wanna give them my share of notes. I realise friendship do exist. I know I love my family in a different way. I realise the challenges of working with different people. Argumentations in love make me stronger. I realise my roles to play and to learn to play them well.
I starting facing the society. I realise hostility exist. Noone is really nice. Everyone has a use. Explotation. New & fresh - INexperienced. People pass judgements, people make remarks. Yeaps, Nasty looks and comments. Giving up? Nope! Hurdles passed through. I learned:
Respect is to be earned not to be demanded.
People dun fail to plan but plan to fail.
I remember my ex boss told me that, Marketing of wat I learned was based on businesss philosophies and U can draft a fairytale but noone to execute but urself. Everything said, Everything pinned down is to be EXECUTED.
Suddenly, everything is not a passing cloud. Everything have to be meticulous. THink before you write, before you say. Everything needs a concrete reason, no excuses to find. So wat U know about marketing? SO wat if your projects are 'A'? SO wat if you have good grades?
Can U survive the Plan and work-it-out society?
Can U play MS NIce gal and survive the I-Win-U-Lose working life?
True. Maybe not as bad. Maybe not for all cases. but have you heard of Money is the root of all evils?
I went through another obstacle of LOVE. Putting too much does cause harm. Depending on someone too much can disminish the thin red line between NEED & LOVE. DO I love him? DO I need him? Memories or THinking about him? Not satisfied of placing too much in it and got nothing in the end?
Proclaims: Love need no Expectations. But think about it. if even the world have expectations on customer service, on oneself to strive. how about relationships? on the other party? Criterias seems to set forward. Placed there blindly without one even noeing.
Crushed at 1st. I must admit. Love juz once scares me to commit further.
One thing I learned greatly:
I am SO Freaking Devoted and I hate myself for that.
I stumbled but I stand up again much stronger. I have to accept reality that love is juz part of life. Let it be. Fate has create future for me. I leave it to destiny. by that time, noone is gonna stop me. Nothing can stop us :)
GOing through the 2nd chapter of my life. Life is a rollercoaster. Time past too fast. It seems like yesterday.
What DO I want in my life?
I wish, I wish, I wish for a better tomorrow, for a beautiful day ahead where I can see the sun and face my troubles with no difficulties.
Embraced the breezee and Breathe deeper in times where I needed it most.
Lynette - Optimistic is the word for me
A rainbow to end my day
1:03 AM
Songs of Rainbow
Lynette is the composer of her life
Someday I will find it
Scorpion
23 years of laughter
Driven by hopes, Love and Dreams
Want an exciting Life, daring & bold
