my motivational quote, "As the going gets tougher, the tougher gets going!"
I guess I have to say I WILL SURVIVE.
I realise many things have changed.
I had a tiff with my mother. How I try not to, it just comes onto me.
OF coz I care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's like 101 things on my to-do-list and here I have my dearest mother trying to get my attention.
I feel guilty after that. OK, I did not scream at her. I just told her I have to GO becoz I have class and must get prepared. Yaps, guilty daughter CUTS her conversation.
Am I suppose to forgo everything and empathise on what she's about to tell me?
I do not noe how to make her see her daughter is all stressed up and the last thing I need is saying "U do not care for me at all!"
Yaps My mother is getting on her age.
The whole cycle is tormenting her.
she feels like a child and me? feeling like a mother.
Abruptly, she put down the fone on me and tell me she dun wish to call me anymore...
**flustered!**
**disbelief**
she was not understanding?
or is it me who can't even spare a few minutes? surely i can do BETTER than that to my friends?
Humans are weird alrite.
we r always trying to be nice, trying to be chin chai and appear all good to people whom we do not know very well.
what are WE (yes, U too) trying to prove?
gaining favours so we may be look upon to?
gaining respect for the things that we do?
when will we ever take off this MASK of ours... and play the reality
Life is INdeed a Masquerade.
I am getting tired really.
I can't be always ms GOODIE GER
be less FAKE and tell people why u r not happy.
smile only when necessary
I definitely do not wanna lose myself and I am still finding.
Back to my mother's case,
I really CARE in the heart but Sometimes juz cropped up to show my REAL concern.
I went home and apologise
I WAS IGNORED
1 week later, she called me to reconcile :D
Blood is thicker than water, remember that!
My mother nags and repeat alot, she's becoming a storyteller now. a grand daughter helps alot! Her wish will be fulfiled! -------- maybe another 5 - 8 yrs time :P
I hope to give my parents companion of KIDS soon because they are getting on their age. Though my DOGS keep them company but seeing their children's children is the best reward in life can give...
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I am rediscovering.
iTunes Rocks!
Thanks to daniel I got the soundtrack for "walk the line!"
