just wanna summarise some of my latest happenings.
1. I graduated!
and of coz, accompanying are photos for remembrance :)
my parents and me
my fave jumping shots with char, aijia and huiteng
moolahz! kq, char, zx
me acting spastic but crazily happy
me and bear having OUR moment.
my hall with kenneth :D
for the 3 yrs of hard work, pain, mugging through the nite, endless arguments with group mates, happily working with people, building bonds with professors and classmates, laughing thru the whole lecture, sleeping in tutorials without getting caught, staying in beloved hall where I get my peace, walking from north to south to north and south, having good chats during breaks, queuing for food, late for classes, taking notes, borrowing notes...
I will miss NTU a great deal.
thanks for the convo. thanks for my exchange trips - total of 3.. in china, SMU and netherlands. thanks for making me pay so much! thanks for believing me. thanks for that glorious moment.
2. deciding to the next phase in life.
DE WORK LIFE.
I wanna quote this from Daoxing: "the thing about in the rat race is even if you win, you will be still a rat"
how true! no offence to rat lovers but the metaphor is you will be still just someone looking for means to an end.
what is COMPETITION? I guess no end to comparisons. there will be always someone earning more, having a better status, leading just a BETTER LIFE.
so here I am, a little rat trying to find the cheese in this rat race.
Singapore, a rat community. everyone trying to be the 1st in the society, showing the moolahz or worse, throwing the moolahz
So i have job offers. too low, I reject. I broke my bond coz it's not something I like.
Nope, not rich... but I'm glad to have supportive parents who always at my back.
then here, comes the critical question: MONEY OR INTEREST?
people tell me FUTURE most important. a platform to progress, to grow. but geez, who knows the future?!
money is a motivating factor but so is interest!
I can have money but I feel like SHIT working. isn't that worse? I guess after hearing, seeing people who tell me... being in the line for a few yrs and realised this is not their cup of tea.
but we are STILL YOUNG. really! 25 is still young. room for mistakes, room for changes, room for decisions. to find out what we really want.
I am glad at every interview I went. I take home something more as they tell me of themselves who was completely in a different field before accomplishing of where they are today, doing a TOTALLY DIFFERENT thing.
so question again, MONEY OR INTEREST?
finance vs media.
Finance is interesting.. after being reading up so much. I guess it's dumb to have money coming in but not growing it. I mean I grew up in tat environment where parents use their money for other investment purposes. and here I am today, using the money that they planted...
Media is my passion... I took marketing in Diploma and Degree. that says ALOT! marketing is my love, my air, my food. everywhere I go, I notice ads, I think about them, I analyse them. yaya, SHOW OFF! haha but what I wanna say is, I breathe media. I wanna embrace it and own it. pay is not as high as finance but I know I can do this. I mean not trying to be a smart aleck. what I learn in school maybe different at work. definitely letting room to learn.
back to the old roots, will they have judgements on me? will they expect alot on me?
In life, expectations expectations. risk and uncertainties.
so what now again?
MONEY OR INTEREST?
3. God does exist.
I know he's there.
he have been helping me... and I am thankful
I've been praying.
I dreamt of my grandmother who was a christian.
she was smiling :) made me smile too..
can it be a sign?
if he's going to help me in this life decision, I will believe in him..
because I am definitely having the tiny leap of faith.
A rainbow to end my day
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Songs of Rainbow
Lynette is the composer of her life
Someday I will find it
Scorpion
23 years of laughter
Driven by hopes, Love and Dreams
Want an exciting Life, daring & bold
