Met up with 2 of my course mates in shanghai uni whose also from ntu. there's only 4 of us and one is on her way to shanghai. hopefully we can make more friends and get to interact with overseas students:
ON our way to Shanghai University with Jacky & Liling! weeeeeeee
I noticed shanghai people love to drive volkswagen cars almost like seeing toyota in Singapore. very common.
we reached Shanghai UNi, spack in the middle of town. COOL! like SMU? the campus was beautiful, looks like those England universities. I would be mistaken I am in shanghai given the victorian buildings. Will post fotos soon!
we proceeded with our hostel and it was neat and best of all, MUCH BETTER than NTU hostels. looks like hotel and it is air-conditioned and big! here's where our study trip begins: and of coz, jacky stays alone in the single room.
Becoz of the town advantage, our uni is near many shops which means: SHOPPING! SHOPPING! SHOPPING!
haha have not really started though, we juz bought necessities and some things we need during our 3 weeks stay here. we decided to have a good decent meal nearby for only 55 yuan = S$11 and it's damn nice:
the hungry us:
the damage done :P
In Shanghai, the weather is so good. the people are rather fashionable as well. the buildings are really quite modern but best thing is the things here are DIRT CHEAP!
I woke up at 12pm and yeah got our internet connected in our room so I can chat with my goodie friends :) hehe then proceeded to 石门一路 to eat. the train line is so easy and accessible. seems easy to get around. we discovered 吴江路 which sells all the good cheap food! simply delighted we ate dumplings. so good! oichi! and we ate the chicken wings, check out our fotos along the street!
the shop names in china are really interesting. some of the funny names we came upon: pizza hut 必胜客 photocoping shop 有求必印 CD shop 必爱歌 cup noodles 开杯乐
more will post! keke.
we went to 南京路 from 人民广场 and alot of neon lights and really lots of shops but dunno y, no mood to shop so we juz walk thru the street and admire the lights.
I will blog more becoz I realised Blogger has some problem blogging my fotos! I shall post in a photo album for u guys to view!
i MUST blog this but as my title mentions, I am SO Pissed!
*calm down lynette*
yes yes yes zhongyu passed me meditation books and I promised b4 i practice the cultivation of tolerance. let me feel this rage and anger OUT!
a form of release!
here's what happen: My itchy fingers accidentally click on this friendster profile whom I do not know? but thought he looks like a friend of mine.
then received this MAN-HATER email from him titled "ghjdfyhdstjh" u look like u can kill a man! u got that man-hater look
I THOUGHT it was a compliment so being sarcastic, i replied: -_-"
yes... i was a man before. is it obvious?!!!! :P
then... he replied, no?
it muz be a veli successful sex change operation
anyway u remind of a gal who kena dump by her bf b4
SO? what's he trying to say? saying I can kill a man and men hates me. simply OUTRIGHT RIDICULOUS AM I like a shemale to him who stole his BELLE gal? being the friendly & peaceful gal me, i held my peace to reply this loving msg: hahaa..
jus kidding with u
anyway, i was dumped by my bf b4 many yrs back.
maybe its the same gal?
do u happen to noe the guy's name? C! I am so open somemore. in case at this stage u r thinking, "it's ok wat!" ya its ok "is he good looking?" NO HE'S NOT EVEN AVERAGE! ok abit bad, juz average la!
and guess what the joker replied: yes, his name is desmond
i was like HUH? ya and his name is desmond so He IMAGINED HE dumped me? WAT THE HELL? or I was like a spilt image of his ex gf whom he DUMPED and HATED so much? Or some funny joke of referring to someone named desmond and what's the bulli point? hello?!
being the IGNORANT AND ACT BLUR me,I dun bother to reply. Me busy gal have BETTER things to do than replying stupid msgs like this in friendster which I dun even noe why I started in the 1st place
maybe becoz friendster is dying for me.
then he msged: dun juz look at my pictures, do something.
oh. so like what? "HEY CAN I ASK FOR UR NUMBER OR MSN?"
yucks. lynette dun do such thing. ok maybe to cuties :P
then stupid me replied: apologies, i thought u looked like a friend of mine.
that's all
tata :)
Y did i even apologised?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh becoz feeling guilty I bear the crime of viewing someone's profile? argh. wrong choice of words. suddenly felt pricked right there. I wanted to msg "ERM, I AM NOT EVEN INTERESTED IN U! GOSH!!!!!!" BUT my sis stopped me.
Be nice. ok... I must be a better gal!yeah! peace loving one!
just when I can be nice, he replied, good
ciao :)
ok guy that's it! ur attitude gotta be reprimanded. I replied: hey,
mind ur attitude.
It doesn't mean someone looked at ur profile and SOMETHING gotta be done.
next time, limit ur profile to people within ur circle and mind ur fingers to msging people u dunno.
U r not worth my time, dude.
erm, KARMA SEED! Let me unplant it. sometimes some people really ought to be said.
just becoz i am a gal and a nice one? doesn't mean people can climb over my head and let them say what they want.
I have my pride & dignity too.
so ya, LAST straw. usually I can hold it pretty well. really.
I am leaving on the 26 May Friday by SQ826 10.10am flight
I will be back on 18 June but might extend becoz friends or family might join me there. hoho
been bumming around but i love doing nothing :P
relaxation after exams. with like nothing to worry about. the best thing is my own time, my own target, my own free life and best of all, CAN GET UP LATE! heehee.
but nahz, im not a slacker by nature, juz lazybones at times. not a couch potato also. i have many movies waiting for me to watch but juz din bother to catch it also because i prefer companions to watch.
basically, I work hard then I also learn to Play hard and Relax!
my mother has been treating me like a lit' girl. worried about this, worried about that and scare I am not in time to get my things confirm. she juz dun trust me to get things done.
i am capable ok! i am independent! PERIOD.
all's done except the packing.
argh! hate the packing. dunno where to start?
I am eyeing the samonite pinkie hard case cover luggage but my house have tons of them and so, I can't spend extra money :(
yeah! 1 mth to R&R (rest and relax) but also going to miss my dear friends esp aman? hoho...
so dun miss me too much!
I will try to come msn when I can in shanghai university hostel.
time to catch some cute china men and ladies for some of my frenz. time to practice my china slang to perfection. time to brush up on my bargaining skills. I can be a real bargain bitch! hehee especially with them. HALF PRICE OR miang tan?! take it or leave it.
those who have been to china noe what i am toking abt. they juz jack up the prices 2 or 4 times. terrible
here's my updated pics for you to think of me or when u miss me, come to my blog site have a peek-a-boo: remember my face! ya got nose, mouth, eyes...
my cool sunglasses. hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!okay!
over the hedge is sooooo funny! hehe be sure go catch it! my fave character: hammy! so cute.... border="0" alt="" />
the poster! i love the cartoon! my 2nd fave after finding nemo.. keke definitely better than shrek!
and lastly, my rascal: we have a love-hate affair. I love to disturb him and he always seem so grumpy. barking non-stop but He's my cute lit' darling.
I met up with an unexpected friend for 6 yrs! and in these 6 yrs, we never met even once.
Zhongyu, a guy I noe from IRC many many yrs back in the yr 2000.
though he happen to be my frenz classmate in poly but we nv spoke or even face to face.
and in the yr 2006, we met. he is going to be a MONK!
23 yrs old. suave? hehee...u judge urself :P another eligible bachelor down! think I'm going to puke
some friends thought he really look like a monk(ey) -ey. Be respectful he got this benevolent look.
"sure anot?"
but nevertheless, a real nice guy who is a vegetarian now and is going to taiwan for 11 yrs to pursue buddhism.
our meeting was very fulfiling because I tried to change his mind. hahahahaha nah! JUST KIDDING!
He explained and enlightened me in some ways about buddhism teachings and patiently tell me about the supernatural powers that some monks may achieved.
meditation. karma seeds. the 6 realms of life. buddhism is part of life.
thanks! i remember these terms only! hehee..
I am also very interested. being a free thinker, i would like to have an open mind and open heart and seeing his determination, make him wonder his direction in life.
Why would one give up everything even the love of his life? the kids? one word: ENLIGHTENMENT
hahaa. think he will laugh it out. "how to explain to u? it's hard for anyone to understand"
I wanna noe more about buddha. the way of a better life.
he will pass me a few books to understand buddhism. "well that's becoz u got the wisdom to make ur life better!", he said.
in case you never see b4. all dancers have to be tested for ALL kinds of genre.
imagine a hip hop dancer have to dance to foxtrot, waltz and ballroom dancing!
it's really amazing.
The more I see, the more i have the urge to learn dancing...
And it's through the show, I see so much styles and techniques in dancing.
gosh!
here's some clips of my fave dancers: ashle and artem with foxtrot.
my fave dancer: kamila who is going to be out.. haiz and jamile both hip hop king and queen! check this out:
Gosh! this is super good! melody and nick. woohooo... the judges loved it. paso doble. one fierce bull dance
tango! yeah.. kamilah once again with nick. I love this dance. so passionate and fierce and kamilah is soooo sexy
next and lastly, this wonderful dance is smooth waltz by blake and ashle. oh my god.. the way they dance is so beautiful and classical. make me wonder in time. my fave waltz dance of all. ashle and blake are damn good
awwwwwww how i wish i can dance like them.
wait till i graduate and earn moolahs! i will surely take up ballroom, salsa, waltz dancing!
woohoo... and ya,
make up classes, design classes, cooking classes, language classes
sorry that's the PAST. nowadays, MS was reported to be really quiet.
where's the crowd?
maybe at some other HAPPENING places. but I still love to club.
there's a few underlying reasons why people club: 1. hooking up with gers and guys 2. to drink. 3. music to dance 4. noe more friends 5. feel belonging within the group
what are ur reasons? for me. MUSIC and DANCING.
i love dancing!
no need alcohol or guys. it's ok. I can make do without them.
with my interest still at clubbing, many have lost the interest. sadly, my clubbing kakis has lessen alot. some of them have converted to couple-oh-goodie-me or chill-me-out
and no more the CLUBBING-I'M-ON! kinda of attitude anymore :(
maybe the interest will generate once again when friends are into clubbing or when u r working with a bunch of clubbers.
someone told me before that CLUBBING is something we cannot avoid when we go out and work next time.
it's NETWORKING.
I so agree. people interact and entertain clients in clubs. My ex colleagues who are in sales club almost everynite. with car, alcohol and the smoke relieves their stress? play 5-10 like no tomorrow having fun with all of them. releasing their hair down and the next day? can appear at work and professionally deliver her presentation.
that's what i call ZAI i wanna be like that!
not that I yearn for the alcohol but man, they all become so close and business seems easier to tok abt.
working 9 - 5 is SOOOO no life. I was telling my friends why settle for a boring life after work?
the PERFECT NORM: 9 - 5pm - I am so tired go back and sleep the next day work commence.
so mundane! ok maybe add up with some people doing course, going out for movies blah
CLUBBING has vast opportunities. ok maybe CHILL OUT as well. u never noe who u r going to meet there. a future BOSS? a future entrepreneur?
the importance of NETWORKING is so discernible in singapore now. everything now is about RELATIONS. RELATIONS. RELATIONS. everyone offering the same service so what makes u different?
oh i noe him/her!!!!!!!!
maybe i dunno the aspects yet but i can SEE. people who juz lock themselves up is sad.
hey and I dun mean club every week, fornightly or monthly. just whenever u r happy, whenever u r free. for me once in 3 - 6mths? because too much means i dun have time for my studies?
i am still a good student and a good ger ok! so fun! :P
seee my point finally?!
put down ur bulli restrictions and see the BIGGER picture.
anyway, went to zouk with lainez! here are the pictures:
lainez lainez lainez one survival in clubbing!
too bad, where's the rest? :( even my aman is not clubbing anymore becoz of her health.
don't people noe ASSUME is juz making an ASS out of U & ME
someone juz shoot this question that time: "Is it because he's not earning enough to support u?"
gosh! people's perception.
am I demanding?
I ask myself....
anyway, everyone has their own expectations as long as u r firm of what u want.
i know what i want for sure.
the BASICS - food, transportation, movies
a guy should pay.
nahz... not LV, BULGARI, CD blah I dun need lavish or luxuries to satisfy my life. I also dun need the stickiness man ever.
i wanna have the freedom to love and he has his freedom too.
" give a man his wings and he will fly to u in speed." my believe.
then again, each couple should give their own space - their own friends, his own career, his interest pursue and maybe juz time alone.
thru time, passion dies down and all we need is a best friend to tok to and one who understands all.
my take: a couple too close may end up in a disasterous fall. being too dependent never helps. im saying in terms of my own POV and refering to noone in particular. all i can say is u have a whole lifetime being with the person u love so y hurry?
I dun wish to make the same mistake of falling out of love and realised I have noone to turn to? this is a result of being too dependent then realised all the time in the world was spending on the other person. by the time, all frenz juz can't feel the connection of "FRIENDSHIP" after one has not even thought of them when they are attached. it's quite sad really and HELL. when people u thot u care just start ignoring u or feeling the distance.
i feel the most important people in our lives before marriage should be FAMILY & FRIENDS. how much time do we have left for them afer marriage?
marriage is a whole commitment spending with ur special half. with marriage comes children. the whole cycle of being able to spend time with friends and family juz stucked there. of coz, it depends on different people management.
but Looking at singaporeans' lifestyle, the norm is developing. work work work and all we need, a hse to rest in and time to spend with the other half and maybe, kids.
ok coming back to the point, I dun think I am demanding or neither do I wish to be judged. judgemental friends dun go far. be whatever u think I am because u dunno the facts. it's juz funny how people try to find reasons to noe why a break-up has happen. maybe hear it from the real ger - me?
the other point is make time for ur own life and not sticking to someone u thot could be the one. nobody noes?
the only constant thing in the world is CHANGE. people change whether u like it or not.
balance ur life to go out with frenz, family, lover
what are ur priorities? have u ever thought to think are u spending too much time with ur other half?
we r toking abt SPACE here. and even the TRUST.
so embrace the love but dun forget the friends who are in one corner of the world waiting for ur sms, calls or msn emails to call them out
Did I disappoint you or let you down? I have made up my mind. I decided to leave U not because U have been a bad lover. I know I love You. and I still do I was so sure because my heart skipped a beat I dream of our future like being with you feels like the rainbow behind me
I know I have not been the goodie gf all these times. one who keep making u wait, one who make u angry, one who never help u save money, one who complains alot, one who promises to cook for u one day but never did, one who had plans like the camping out and puzzle but never fulfil...
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
I am thankful you taught me what's love again after loving him. I learn to love again. I overcome my fear of jealousy and possessive. U provided the security a girl should have. U made me happy :) I know u did....
Treated me like a princess before with all the late night suppers, rides back, and helping me with the miscellaneous.
again, I am thankful for everything U have sacrifice for me. I will remember for the lover U've been to me
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Sometimes love juz ain't enough We have expectations - that kills our foresight, our feelings and our fear I fear the future with u - I fear it's not what I will expect I foresee things beyond my imagination - I think too much I feel not only with my heart but with my mind - I wanna be rational.
After seeing other peoples' setbacks and my own, I have become vulnerable. I have become even abit heartless. I want something that WILL work out - as if I wanna play goddess of love.
Took your soul out into the night.
someone told me before, if something wun work out, it will be hard to work out unless someone change or the other someone will be able to tolerate.
I dun wish you to change because it's U that i fall for. I can't tolerate either
what choice do I have left?
Ya, I maybe selfish - I think for myself only but I believe What I did was best for both of us.
It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care.
I promised I will be there for u Can we be friends?
at least we say our goodbye as a friend and not as an enemy
You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
thanks kenneth for everything. thanks for the happiness during this 1 yrs 4 mths approx. thanks for 7 Jan 2004 thanks for loving me thanks for appearing my life thanks for being there for me always
I wish you all the best in ur journey. the journey we both pursue in parallel routes. thanks for bypassing mine and leaving steps behind. I have learned so much and gained so much insight as a lover, a friend and as a woman. U will always be the only baddie in my heart. always the "baddie"
maybe years down the road, I will regret. I will miss the times we shared.
I will keep it deep inside my heart and when I am free, I will take it out to recall the memories.
for now, I wish to be free & single... and rediscovering myself
thanks for reading this post and understanding my misery. I've teared and my eyes are swellin' but I see clearer now..
I appreciate everyone's concern but dun worry, I will be fine :)