Hello again
Saturday, August 31, 2013
this blog came a long way, I've came a long way.
What a god-blessed journey this have been!
GOSH!I don't know where to start seriously.
Later then I will update days of my life so that this blog will be read by my generations and generations and stories to be told :)
yes, I never understood why people closed and opened and closed blogs again and again.
they are our journals, memories, things that doesn't kill us but made us stronger!
I have noone to prove to but to myself so this blog - may it last forever :)
here's something I thought I wanna share with my grandchildren and myself to laugh at:
92 truths about me
Name: Lynette Chee
Age: 29
Birthdate: 13/11/1983
Present Address: Singapore
What Was Your:
1. last beverage = plain water
2. last phone call = Mummy
3. last text message = Shirly Hing
4. last song you listened to = Titanium - David Guetta and SIA
5. last time you cried = at church on last Sunday :) for GOD
Have You Ever:
6. dated someone twice = No.
7. been cheated on = Yes.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Never
9. lost someone special = Yes.
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Yes.
List Three Favourite Colors:
12. Blue
13. Pink
14. Black
Last Year(2012), Have You:
15. Made a new friend = Many
16. Fallen in love = Yes
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Tremendously
19. Found out who your true friends were = Definitely
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Everyone talks about me, but I don't really care
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Yes.
General:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Proudly say more than 1000
24. Do you have any pets = 2 dogs and counting...
25. Do you want to change your name = No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday= booked a chalet
27. What time did you wake up today = 9am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = watching Percy Jackson in the movies
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = to get married :D
30. Last time you saw your Mother= in the afternoon!
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life= Stop wasting so much time and money when I was young
32. What are you listening to right now = the Fan behind me
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?= Never
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Stomach pain
35. Most visited webpage = Facebook for sure
37. Nickname = Nette, Lyn, Short one, fat one, xiao mei
38. Relationship Status = Engaged!
39. Zodiac sign = Pig
40. Male or Female = Female
41. Elementary = Haig Girls'
42. High School = Telok Kurau Sec
43. College = Singapore Polytechnic
44. Hair color = white and black
45. Long or short = Long
46. Height = 153cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = ya once.
48. What do you like about yourself? = Positive!
50. Tattoos = No way!
51. Righty or lefty= Righty
Firsts :
52. First surgery = No.
53. First piercing = Baby time
54. First best friend = Sherene Mahtani
55. First sport you joined = Badminton
56. First vacation = Los Angelos
58. First pair of trainers = Reebok
Right Now:
59. Eating = no
60. Drinking = no
61. I'm about to = bathe and sleep
62. Listening to = Fan behind me..
63. Waiting for = to bathe and sleep
Your Future
64. Want kids? = yes!
65. Get Married? = yes!
66. Career? = yes, earn more!
Which Is Better :
67. Lips or eyes = eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Forever young pls
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Arms
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Hesitant
Have You Ever :
76. Kissed a stranger = Yes
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Yes
79. Sex on first date = No.
80. Broke someone's heart = Yes
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes
82. Been arrested = Never!
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = Yes
85. Fallen for a friend = Yes
Do You Believe In:
86. Yourself = Yes
87. Miracles = I say its GOD
88. Love at first sight = Yes
89. Heaven = Yes
90. God = Yes
91. Kiss on the first date = Yes
92. Angels = YesLabels: happy me, love me, me
A rainbow to end my day
11:13 PM
the forsaken
Friday, May 05, 2006
we met.
I dunno why... I appeared strong
I know I am strong
he asked why I seemed unaffected? heartless maybe that's what he meant
so hidden behind that mask.
now?
my heart is piercing into pieces.
the nite is torturing me...
BUT i made this choice
I bear the consequences
Sometimes I wanna let go of everyting and juz say the magic words of asking him back in my life.
but I can't.
the words in my heart are not in my mind.
perhaps, I couldn't find the best reason to let go......
i have never cried so much in my life than now
ya not even the departure of jack.
DO i really love this guy?
or it was a moment of loss because im used to this guy?
need vs love.
"Take care of urself coz I am not there to take care of u"
"I miss ur hugs, ur smell, ur kisses..."
all in all, I feel distorted.
credits to DMC
Will i regret to forsake this guy in my life....
I am beginning to feel this way...Labels: love me
A rainbow to end my day
1:29 AM
Goodbye my lover
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
I have made up my mind.
I decided to leave U not because U have been a bad lover.
I know I love You. and I still do
I was so sure because my heart skipped a beat
I dream of our future like being with you feels like the rainbow behind me
I know I have not been the goodie gf all these times. one who keep making u wait, one who make u angry, one who never help u save money, one who complains alot, one who promises to cook for u one day but never did, one who had plans like the camping out and puzzle but never fulfil...
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
I am thankful you taught me what's love again after loving him.
I learn to love again.
I overcome my fear of jealousy and possessive.
U provided the security a girl should have.
U made me happy :)
I know u did....
Treated me like a princess before with all the late night suppers, rides back, and helping me with the miscellaneous.
again, I am thankful for everything U have sacrifice for me.
I will remember for the lover U've been to me
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Sometimes love juz ain't enough
We have expectations - that kills our foresight, our feelings and our fear
I fear the future with u - I fear it's not what I will expect
I foresee things beyond my imagination - I think too much
I feel not only with my heart but with my mind - I wanna be rational.
After seeing other peoples' setbacks and my own, I have become vulnerable.
I have become even abit heartless.
I want something that WILL work out - as if I wanna play goddess of love.
Took your soul out into the night.
someone told me before, if something wun work out, it will be hard to work out unless someone change or the other someone will be able to tolerate.
I dun wish you to change because it's U that i fall for.
I can't tolerate either
what choice do I have left?
Ya, I maybe selfish - I think for myself only but I believe What I did was best for both of us.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
I promised I will be there for u
Can we be friends?
at least we say our goodbye as a friend and not as an enemy
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
thanks kenneth for everything.
thanks for the happiness during this 1 yrs 4 mths approx.
thanks for 7 Jan 2004
thanks for loving me
thanks for appearing my life
thanks for being there for me always
I wish you all the best in ur journey.
the journey we both pursue in parallel routes.
thanks for bypassing mine and leaving steps behind.
I have learned so much and gained so much insight as a lover, a friend and as a woman.
U will always be the only baddie in my heart. always the "baddie"
maybe years down the road, I will regret. I will miss the times we shared.
I will keep it deep inside my heart and when I am free, I will take it out to recall the memories.
for now, I wish to be free & single... and rediscovering myself
thanks for reading this post and understanding my misery.
I've teared and my eyes are swellin' but I see clearer now..
I appreciate everyone's concern but dun worry, I will be fine :)
Lynette will be back.Labels: love me
A rainbow to end my day
11:42 PM
coming to an end...
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I would like ask a question:
HAve you ever been a sinner for taking things for granteD?
I am sure we all have.
please repent before it's too late.
recently, someone I noe father passed away and from what i know, it was very sudden.
the thought that u saw him smiling yesterday is today lying gracefully in a place whom we do not know its existence call heaven.
I was astonished. because noone was given a chance to do things to cherish him.
at least to show.
the art of expressing.
haiz. I am a guilty sinner for this.
cherish. have you ever cherished the people you cared around u?
time wait for noone.
disease have no mercy.
I made my point very clear. the PRESENT that matters. who cares what the future lies? do we know if we are ever going to spend the fat big lump sum in our accounts? do we know if tomorrow comes and we can wake up to see the sun in our eyes.
sadly, noone noes.
I remember vaguely this same incident that striked me once. someone told me about his closed one leaving without a trace, without a sign... it's heartening.
only leaving a note behind him for people to read.
I lost my grandmother and I really had a hard time. I dreamt of her. I cried like the lit' baby born without noeing what life can bring. I wonder why?
yeaps. pricks me. I did not fulfil what I planned to give her.
I wanted her to see me getting married, passing me the jade she wanted for me, I wanted her to see my children. I wanna hear her stories with anxiety. I wanna touch her flaky skin that shows how much pain she had gone thru.
Still, I was glad for the moments we spent.
From here, I learnt. we Dunno WHAT is going to happen in the future.
Plan all u want - for the fame, money, status, career
but ultimately, for the LOVE - it juz strikes u and leaves u before you know it.
now, I can only keep in my heart and take it out whenever im alone to feel the memories coming alive once again
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then again, life is full of many surprises.Labels: love me
A rainbow to end my day
7:30 PM
