I mean give me a break! "praise the lord!" "thank you jesus!"
It started since I was 6 years old, going to Bethesda chapel in Bedok.
Oh how long god's relationship with me have started and then neglected :(
I asked myself, "what god's intention to seek for him now?" "why now?"
He seeked my faith in him and to tell myself, stop condemning myself for the things I've done because god is a forgiving god and as long as I am the righteousness in my faith, I will receive an abundance of grace, amen!
I am not perfect - I have said and done things that I regretted and I often ask myself,
"this is my karma" "god want me to regret" "this is my retribution"
thank god, I attended new creation church and hearing sermon about condemning no more... to receive grace from god.
I am happy for my ex bfs who are all getting married except for the most recent one.
truly sincerely am.
don't think anyone as mention will read but I think I am good luck lynette :P
as long as they are happy, I am happy.. no point comparing happiness.
many years down the road, as I read this blog post, I hope I can dare to say "I did find my own happiness too"
and I am sure god will help me along this journey...
because god is great, god is good.
lately, I thought I will never like someone ever again because the hurt was too deep but god proved me wrong.
I did.
though the person did not reciprocate, I am glad he made me realised, my heart deserved a second chance - undeserving second chance to let myself fall over heels with :)
it was a quiet happiness, inside shouting "YES, I DID IT AGAIN"
my friend asked if I am sad, I say though I am but god made me see it positively.
and when god came into my life, it was great, it was amazing!
with god's grace, I've experienced greatness.
so this greatness starts here. it's about my father.
All along, my father is a man of a few words.. he work so hard that every weekend, every family outing, he was not around.
however, he made efforts to appear during my graduations, my overseas study trips to send me off in airports - was more than I could ever ask for truly.
My childhood was great because of my ever greatest mum but father is always around to support me financially and in times of trouble - when I was cheated, dumped in love, work etc.
he's not all great sometimes, he scold and insult too. but I take it all in just because he's my father and for my own good I presume.
when I was learning how to drive, it was not rosy because he's a driving instructor and frankly, i was a bad driver then :P so the scoldings went all the way from the driveways and to home even. being a man, being my father - he had expectations of a driving instructor's daughter.
Now that I am driving, he never fail to surprise me - wash my car, polish my car, bring my car for servicing, offer to sponsor this and that.
So where does GOD have a part to play in this?
I never thought much of my father. I've been showering my love to my mum who was more needy and attention seeking (I mean she's a woman?)
Last night, i was praying if god want to make changes in my life.. let it start with my family.
When I was driving home, I was thinking of my father.
I was thinking of the funny moments where I tried to find my father's car in the parking lot to park beside him vice versa and how he tell me, he washed my car speck and span and trying to get some acknowledgement from me. to me, it's funny - funnily loving. he would wash my car from time to time - free car wash, who don't want? haha
then my sis came home today say there's a funny incident just after my thoughts of my dad run thru my mind.
she told me an old friend randomly ask her if she wanna learn driving because he has a good intructor in woodlands to intro and his name is robert.
what are the odds that our father name robert is also staying & teaching in woodlands?!
so my sis ask if his surname is "chee"
then all came to light - he was introducing my father to all of his friends and to my sis!
LOL, i wanna shout: PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
he introduced 10 friends to my dad and my sis didn't ask him to intro driving instructor. he just spread the word volunteerily without rewards, without repayment.
he told my sis, my father was a strict and good instructor and scolded him when he was late.
wow! I was impressed and thankful to this guy friend of my sis.
inside me, I also know who to thank - the greater someone who is answering to my prayer almost immediately.
in god's grace, we reign.
thank god for taking care of my father :)
i pray for more greatness as I am righteous in my faith.
