more than a year since I last blogged. I've decided to bear my heart out once again and this entry marks the beginning. again.
so many things happen since I last blogged. to make it real short and sweet, on 14 February I met someone whom I love very dearly and 23 February we got together then we started on a Long Distance Relationship aka LDR.
it was really tough, distance far apart. I was skeptical at first but we got through it. we were madly in love and I meant MAD, SIAOZ, CRAZY DOWNRIGHT HARDCORE.
"how?"
crazy things like talking till wee hours in the night about anything & everything we almost see each other monthly? he fly here, i fly there like machiam flight attendant. the only difference we only got one destination, one person in mind.
we started 2 fast 2 furious and I did not even keep track of the time and space.
I have to admit, I enjoyed it. it was LOVE ON BOILING POINT. no, maybe VOLCANO LAVA EXPLODING. haha no exaggeration intended.
u noe the thing is when u r in love, u r blind. I am not desperate but if we even thought of getting engaged.
we applied for a flat and got lucky 76 out a few thousand applicants! sadly and maybe fated, our salaries exceeded and even our appeal did not went through.
I went over to Aussie for 3 months - living with him, cooking for him, doing housework. Please, lynette... I have never ever ever done this before for anyone. even my mother is envious. "eh come home and do all these for your family hor!"
frankly then this question pops up, "find someone you can live without and not someone you can live with" then I ask myself, is it so perfect that I can live with him and yet can't live without him?
As I was soaking in my own happiness, ignorant of what's happening. he is having a different thought.
I dunno how, dunno when it all started. all i know is it has happen. the passion has died and the reality has come to face.
so here I am, posting my sad story. falling into a dilemma. again.
Maybe this is my karma. But I believe god has other plans for me. I leave it to him to write my love story :)
people come and go however, these obstacles will not pull me down. I will be happy because life is short and life isn't just about happy endings.
I know I will find my happy ending someway, somehow, somewhere.
All I know, god has been fair to me. the relationships I've been in taught me alot and the bfs I've had treated me well. I felt really blessed when I heard of other ladies' sad stories of being cheated of their money and being treated like shit - in the most horrible way you can ever imagine.
I am counting my blessings.
Whatever the decision or route I've decided, I will live with it and make the best.
I always told some friends my last resort, at most I just be a single spinster who want kids by choosing a sperm donor. haha.
